Deutoronomy 4:29 - Do we REALLY Dwell on God's word constantly?

Deuteronomy 4:29 “But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.”

Earlier this past week I caught myself wondering and pondering on the intents behind the actions of some co-workers. Now this doesn't sound like something very horrible, but it was. It was all I was thinking about. Instead of letting it go I was dwelling on it. I was not seeking God with all my heart and my soul, instead I had partitioned off my thoughts. Sure, I had portioned off this much thought for God before work and after a shower, but I wasn't looking and seeking after God and His will with everything within me. No, I was distracted and upset.

Earlier this week I caught myself wondering what was going to happen in the next chapter of my book that I kept having to put down due to training and co-workers. I was trying to think ahead to see how the past actions and revelations in the book were going to affect our protagonist in the pages ahead. It was all I was thinking about, I was dwelling on it. I was not seeking God with all my heart and my soul but rather I had partitioned my brain. Sure, I had portioned off this much thought for God before work and after a shower, but I wasn't looking and seeking after God and His will with everything within me. No, I was distracted and intrigued with something else.

Earlier this week I caught myself frustrated and agonizing over the vagaries of  electronics. I wanted my laptop to work so I could surf the web, visit Facebook, listen to music, and watch TV shows. However I was unable to get the laptop to connect to the hotel's network and so I couldn't. I was upset. I didn't really appreciate the fact that there was a business center that I could use for checking email and Facebook, I wanted the convenience of my computer in my room. I was frustrated and couldn't get past it. I was thinking about constantly and instead of letting it go I was dwelling on it. I was not seeking God with all my heart and my soul but instead had partitioned off my thoughts. Sure, I had portioned off this much thought for God before work and after a shower, but I wasn't looking and seeking after God and His will with everything within me. No, I was distracted and frustrated.

It wasn't until a bit later that things came into focus for me, a real focus rather than the empty false focus that the world seems to like. I realized my attitude was wrong and my thoughts were incomplete. My day was not to be partitioned off, a bit here, a bit there, but rather to flow entirely out of a constant search and discovery of God and His word. I needed to contemplate God's words, not the words and actions of co-workers. I needed to be caught up in His will and joy and desires for the world rather than the joys and hopes of my book's characters. I needed to be content with what I had, not what I wanted and to make do and appreciate having at least some sort of web connection even if it wasn't as convenient for me.

This is something that I seem to be fighting with everyday, and I am certain you do too.  While God may be the focus of our lives, He isn't the focus of the day or hour much of the time. Perhaps, just perhaps our daily frustrations and upsets stem from that rather than from the incidentals that we think they are from.

Trust in the Lord and still do well,
Within the land securely dwell,
Feed on His faithfulness;
Delight thee also in the Lord,
And to thy heart He will accord
The good it would possess.
                                Earnest K. Kroeger, 1901.